I'm bald and going to Disneyland!

This past weekend was quite an emotional one. Chemo was on Friday and that always sucks. Shelby's birthday party was on Saturday and I actually made it thru, even danced a few dances -- I shouldn't have, but I did. :) Sunday morning, I woke up to get ready for church and when I began to wash what little hair I had, I realized my hands were covered in hair. It was really sad. I knew it was coming, but I suppose it was kind of like a looming death of someone who has been ill, you know it's going to happen, but when it happens nothing quite prepares you for the overwhelming emotions. I couldn't believe it! I sat in the shower for an hour and cried hysterically while I repeatedly ran my hands over my head. Needless to say, me and my puffy eyes didn't make it to church. That night Bobby razor shaved the remaining few hairs for me, so now we are sporting matching white shiny bowling balls. I've noticed my eyebrows have started to thin out, too - time to get out the sharpie and draw them in! :) BUT on the upside, I've done 2 of the 4 crappy treatments with the medicine that really knocks my socks off. After that, I will do 4 treatments of another medicine and I hear it won't be near as bad as the first go round. It amazes me that it takes such powerful and dangerous chemicals to rid my body of the cancer cells. I can't wait to eat what I want to eat, when I want to eat and chase it down with a beer. Seriously, I can't wait!!!! My esophagus is so jacked up, the only thing that goes down comfortably is KFC Mashed Potatoes and Gravy. Yummy!!

I get a 3 week break between treatments this time because WE ARE GOING TO DISNEYLAND ON SUNDAY!!!!! Mickey called the house this morning to tell the kids how excited he and Minnie are to see us. Seriously, I'm not sure who is more excited, Bobby and I or the kids! It's going to be a fantastic week. I don't think the kids have any idea what they are in for!!!

I want to thank each and everyone of you who have sent messages and cards. They truly mean so much and even though I don't always have the chance to respond to each individual message, I want you to know that they ALWAYS help bring my spirits up....even if it's just for 10 minutes. A positive attitude is hard to come by these days, so the messages are always wonderful to read and hear. If I haven't said it lately, CANCER SUCKS! I can't wait to have this part of my life behind me. Take care everyone!

Chemo - round 2! Ding Ding!!!!!

Today is my second chemo treatment. And boy, did I try everything to get out of it -- much to my dismay I'm sitting here in my chemo chair all hooked up to my meds. My good buddy, Mercedes, is here with me and keeping me hydrated and laughing.

Not much has been happening since my last update. Last Friday, I ended up getting really sick and had to come back in for some IV fluids and more anti nausea meds. It sucked! But once all the meds were on board I felt so much better. I did find out that my white blood count was dangerously low and that freaked me out. I had to wear a mask for a few days and had to steer clear of my tiny humans for a little while which was a huge bummer. But as the weekend went on I felt so much better. Then on Tuesday I had my white count checked again and it was so much better -- THANK GOODNESS! So that made for a pretty OK week.

Shelby celebrates her 8th birthday tomorrow, I can't believe it! 8 YEARS OLD!!!! She's having a dance party with with a DJ and all her friends. It's going to be great, I just hope I can feel great, too!